Yes. I've been trying to write something today but words can't seem to get off my chest. Lately, I've been feeling peculiarly lonely for a mix of reasons. Pardon me from shying away from girly, thrifted and bargain clothes or talking about weird fashion finds
. Oh gosh, I'm turning
emo.
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My Facebook profile picture. It blends well with my mood. |
Perhaps, my mood is directly proportional to my health. This low swing of emotions can be attributed to my health. Just this week I visited my doctor to consult on an important concern. I had a major surgery 10 months ago and there are still impending issues on its status. I just realized how depressive it is to see a specialist - especially when you get bad news every time you visit them.
Since it was reccomended that I undergo a very expensive and thorough procedure, I sought for a second opinion. The doctor said that the procedure is very ideal for my situation, but she optimistically gave me an alternative. I have to religiously follow a hormonal therapy for 6 months, and if the disruption is stilll there, then I'll go on with the procedure.
Sigh. At least I am relieved. Though the disruption bothers me, I am hopeful that the hormones will make me well. I am just hoping that everything works out well. I might be dysphoric for times but I'm still keeping my positive vibes up.
Anyways, here are the lonely / happy post-op pictures last year. I still feel thankful for what happened, cause I felt how my family and friends and Pao love me so much!
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with Paolo. |
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and family |
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and more family |
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with my Mom |
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and trying to pose, as if nothing happened :) |
Seeing this pictures made me feel a better. Again I'm sorry for an emotional write-up. Minsan lang. Anyways, I'm off to see Transformers in a bit. I really need to do something to make me feel better. I'm so stressed out.
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